Day 9

Well this is sucking a little! I feel frustrated today. I can see the point, but 63 days without sex is looking a little....dull?

Who'd have thought that sex could be viewed as so much of a fun, recreational activity over the passionate mixture of love and emotion it should be.

Guess thats why they call it "casual"

Challenge Day 7

Give me sex!!!!

Ok, so i got told today that i've become more agressive. Its got to be due to my body not being able to release the testosterone. I'm sleeping slightly less, and dreaming more. Can't remember what i dreamt about last night.

I'm seeing the pure volume of sexual content on TV as well. This is an eye opener

Acceptance

Hey guys, hope y'all are enjoying the bank holiday weekend.

Currently i'm at my parents, and i decided to go through my old wardrobe, y no, reminisce a little. I found an old set of photo's of my ex and a trip we took out once.

For the first time in years, i was able to look, have a bit of a smile and the thoughts weren't the old "you bitch, you broke my heart, why can't we go back to the old times" it was all "i remember that, good times."

It made me realise that so much of life we are striving for more, to be "bigger, better, faster stronger," that we only concentrate on the negatives. As postulated in "the Power of Now," don't let your past define your future, let you define your future.

So i won't burn these photo's. I'll file them away and reflect on "good times"

MC-day 4

So i dreamt a lot about pulling girls last night which was a little disturbing. Normally i dream of pulling guys ;)

I feel a little fuzzy today, higher energy but less alert.

The new challenge

So a mate of a mate went 72 days without masturbation-follow it here for my journey

Currently on day 2, no real effects so far...

PUA in the making

So I'm walking back with a (Venti) Caramel Frap, ipod on, chillin in the sun. Walking towards me is an 11yr old, he's holding hands with two girls, and a third is holding hands with one of the other girls. Walking behind the kid is his mate, alone. He looks cool, chatting to all 3 girls. As i draw close he looks at me:

Him: Hey mate
Me: Yes bud
Him: You want one of my girlfriends?
Me: Haha, i'm good, but your buddy might be able to help you out

I've never seen a shy kids face light up so much.

Me: Have fun guys & girls

Now to me, the first kid is destined to be a player, but maybe i gave the shy guy a chance to be a PUA.

My new hunting ground

A bar called The Glo opened in my local area last weekend. Its a restaurant with an upstairs loft bar which looks out onto the street.

The bouncer didnt want to let us in, probably cos we looked like the kind of ruffians his daughter was spending her weekend with, but the hostess (who prob wanted a ruffian like me between her legs) was all giggles and fun. So we visited the bar, met some great people, chatted to staff and customers alike, and spread it around like whores.

The following night though, the suave crowd of sexiness was replaced by couples. Boo :(

Facebook

We all get those randoms/unwanted people trying to add us on Facebook. Normally i ask someone why they want to add me, if the reason is good enough, they get added.

Today i got a request (and a poke) from my ex-girlfriends lil sister. Felt like a kind of "damned either way" scenario. My ex and her family don't really like me, so not adding her could be considered a kick to the face, whereas the fallout from adding her would have been just as deadly. Why would you even think of adding your ex's sister-unless the breakup was amicable of course.

Didnt help that the sister is a known troublemaker.

Thursday Musings

Why are we drawn to our own destruction? I play computer games at work, I drink and smoke, and I'm attracted to the wrong girls.

Ok, so I don't spend my whole day playing games, Ihave a healthy diet, exercise regularly and don't drink excessively, but it could be so much better.

Take my current "favourite," she is smart, beautiful and mysterious. I've IOI'd, SOI'd and got my share back. I've number closed, been invited out and i believe that attraction is there.

So why am i complaining? Well my gut tells me she is a destroyer of men, the kind of girl that guys settle down for, marry and all that. Currently i'm top of my game, always out chatting to this girl and that. I can't afford to lose my progress but some chances are too good to miss...fuck it, if this is to be my final battle charge, i'm making sure it's one to remember.

Love you guys!

My personals ad

Ok, about two weeks ago i posted the following on Gumtree:

"Hey, looking to increase my friend circle but also get into a relationship. Moved here about 9 months ago with work, and go out every friday as a ritual with the boys ;)

I do all the standard stuff (read, watch movies, music etc) so i won't bore you with that.

I will talk your socks off, i love to hit bars on a night but don't really drink. I will make you blow milk through your nose, you will lose all capacity to breathe! And i like to befriend lonely dance floors :). My style is my own, i have no need for yours.

Sound good, let me know xxx"

The whole point was to see whether nice guys do finish last, there are no sexual connotations or lewd lines, just frank honesty. There is, however, a lot of bold statements.

So far I've had 4 responses, all unsurprisingly female and yet also all foreign. The best is a lovely girl called D who did email me daily until yesterday. I asked for her number, no reply...

wonder what went wrong, if anything?

"Join my pen club" - new game!

Ok, i'm PEN 14, if you want to join my club, please write, in big black permanent marker on your arm or forehead, PEN 15. That way i'll know your in my club. Anyone you recruit will be PEN 16 of course.

Happy hunting, and i hope to one day see lots of PEN15'es :) xxx

The Flair!

Hey all,
Welcome to my musings, my anecdotes, and my ravings..they're all really the same aren't they?

So why Flair? Well, I was once told that one of my strongest attributes is my voice. I know a little about a lot, and a lot about a little. I can talk to anyone, anywhere and at any time-as long as it's in English! So i have a flair for talking. I'm also an extrovert, so i guess i'm like a flare going off sometimes, that burst of light and energy. Thirdly, i love wearing flares, not those crazy bellbottoms or purple catsuits (other colours are fine), but the kind frequented in Topman. Love that shop!

But who am i? I'm a 27 yr old scientist, who works hard to play harder on those 2 days i have to myself. I wish i had more energy in the evenings, doesnt always work like that though!

Its been an amazing weekend. I saw the PUA's, did some food shopping and had a few thoughts here and there. Like why i ran for 3-4 miles, then smoked when i went out. Bizarre.

My realisation for the day is that i haven't been LJBF'ed in so long! When i started out as a PUA, i got it all the time. But i guess as our journey goes on, we iron out the kinks in our vestments and improve our technique.

Ooh, need to iron a t-shirt to wear for work tomorrow

See ya peeps x