Oh what a night?!?

Last night, i wasn't sure if i wanted to go out. In the end, i decided to go round a mates, have some dinner, watch some TV (californication, chancer), then head into town. I went to the KC to meet some mates. My DH girl was there so i agreed to meet her later at Snooty. I just had to go to Monty's to meet some workmates quickly...(and so it starts)

In the queue, i was stood in front of a rather drunk girl. She asked me to phone her phone as she couldn't find it. I did, and it was answered by some bloke who didn't seem too happy. I told her i thought her phone had been stolen. She seemed quite upset, apparently her friends had deserted her. I told her she could hang with me. That seemed to cheer her up. We did some dancing, which ended with her trying to remove my face with her tongue! She met my mates, loved some of them, they all feared for my life. By this point, she was acting rather amorous. After announcing she had an empty house and would like me to come over, so i did.

At hers, stuff got funnier. She poured us wine, and proceeded to smash her glass in the garden. I gave her mine, which enabled me to keep my "no drinking alcohol in october" rule :)

To be blunt, the sex was pretty awesome. It started in the kitchen, and the clothing slowly removed itself on the way to the bedroom. And yes, i used my special move. After a few hours, i was drained and she fell asleep. At this point, i was unsure whether to leave or stay the night. I decided a nights sleep would be ok, and she had quite the grip on me, so settled in.

When we both awoke, there was no "Who the hell is this guy in my bed" and we had coffee/chats. She phoned her mum, who was looking after her daughter (3 yrs old) and told her that her phone had been stolen. Turns out it hadn't, she'd got her number wrong, her phone was actually in her bag. The nan & daughter were supposed to be turning up at 10:30, i had plenty of time. They actually turned up at 10:15 :(

This wasn't so much of a problem, just a bit awkward. I had a bit of a play, then left to do my sunday chores. I might see her again. Good times x

Being a nice guy

I always wondered if i am a nice guy or a bad boy. As a younger man, i treated some girls very badly. I've got myself in a few silly scrapes, cheated a bit.

Last night i faced up to the realisation that i am a nice guy. There were 3 girls who were out who i looked after because they had troubles. 1 was having a big fight with her bf and so i walked her home and had a bit of a chat. Girl 2 was being messed about by her fella so i tried to cheer her up. He made her wait 2 hours then never turned up. Girl 3 turned up way too drunk and asked me to look after her.

This girl is one of my favourites, i love her. I try to avoid seeing her because of my feelings. I'm not the right guy for her but i can still try to be a friend. At a couple of points, i could have kissed her. I just get the feeling we're not meant to be anything but mates. She wants to go for dinner on wednesday, what should i do, blog?

Don't mess with flair

Last night i was out with these two girls who spent most of the night bitching about everything. "Bars were either too loud, too small, too quiet". "Guys are bastards." "We don't understand women."

Anyway, after 3 hrs of this, i decided to go meet another female friend. She's cute, funny, sociable...need i go on? Throughout the time we spent together, i bumped into other people, and she had her mates to chat too...including this guy.

He took an instinct dislike to me. He kept staring at me, then would look away and laugh. It soon became apparent that it was because he fancied my mate. Fair play, i kept it cool, let him chat to her while i entertained her mate and hoped if i backed off, he could get his kicks.

Fat chance. I started to fume a bit, so when my mate found herself sitting next to me, i decided to stick it to him. Out came Flair, on socialite mode. I used games; showed her tricks and got her to tell me her deepest darkest secrets. We flirted, took photos, and shared stuff. He was pissed but like i said, don't mess.

Back!

Ok, so life got crap and i ignored my musings on here. Basically my life has been all over the place. Got a girlfriend, cheated on her. Got another girlfriend, she got bored. Since then, been a bit complacent, but i have learnt a new lesson.

Instead of being a people-pleaser, i now do what i want, when i want, how i want. It's an honest eye-opener, most people hate that i'm more arrogant, less willing to please. I regularly tell people to fuck off, and walk away during nights out to find my own fun.

In essence, instead of being all about you, i'm all about me. And i love it. Be a creature of impulse, and beat the habit out of habit

Day 9

Well this is sucking a little! I feel frustrated today. I can see the point, but 63 days without sex is looking a little....dull?

Who'd have thought that sex could be viewed as so much of a fun, recreational activity over the passionate mixture of love and emotion it should be.

Guess thats why they call it "casual"

Challenge Day 7

Give me sex!!!!

Ok, so i got told today that i've become more agressive. Its got to be due to my body not being able to release the testosterone. I'm sleeping slightly less, and dreaming more. Can't remember what i dreamt about last night.

I'm seeing the pure volume of sexual content on TV as well. This is an eye opener

Acceptance

Hey guys, hope y'all are enjoying the bank holiday weekend.

Currently i'm at my parents, and i decided to go through my old wardrobe, y no, reminisce a little. I found an old set of photo's of my ex and a trip we took out once.

For the first time in years, i was able to look, have a bit of a smile and the thoughts weren't the old "you bitch, you broke my heart, why can't we go back to the old times" it was all "i remember that, good times."

It made me realise that so much of life we are striving for more, to be "bigger, better, faster stronger," that we only concentrate on the negatives. As postulated in "the Power of Now," don't let your past define your future, let you define your future.

So i won't burn these photo's. I'll file them away and reflect on "good times"